A Call For Peace.

This morning I woke up early and turned on my laptop to find yet another fatal shooting here on our soil.  What the hell is going on right now?  What is becoming of our land, our people?  It’s devastating to see us murder each other so easily.  We are playing God.  We think we can make a change for the better with a bullet and we are becoming numb.  That’s the worst part – we are becoming more acceptant of brutal violence.  It is, in a sense, becoming normal.

For me, that is almost as terrifying as the act of shooting, itself.

I’m afraid for my children, your children and our children’s children.  What kind of nation are we turning over to them?  What kind of world will they be forced to deal with because of our mistakes?  Their small, innocent hands aren’t ready to be stained with blood.

Our country is deteriorating from the inside.  We are fighting a war with each other and our strong place of protected freedom is crumbling to ruins around us.  What will become of us if we continue on this destructive path?  Where will we be in five, ten or even 20 years?  We can’t just sit here and watch the death toll continue to rise.  We HAVE to do something about this.

We can start by putting away those murderous metal objects.  Then, let’s shake a stranger’s hand and ask them, genuinely, how their day is.  Let’s put down our phones and focus, REALLY focus, on the world around us.  Take it in.  Appreciate the love and life around us.  Let’s start helping each other.  Whenever and wherever we can.  Let’s show compassion, get involved and use our WORDS to make change.  Let’s tear down the walls that we’ve built up, because right now we have to stand together, UNITED.

Police officers and civilians.  Black and white.  Gay and straight.  Men and women.  We are all PEOPLE.  And right now, we need to stand up for PEACE.

Photo courtesy of Annie Spratt on Unsplash

Trigger

Whether it was bad aim, lack of ammunition, or a change of heart, I’ll never know why he didn’t shoot us.  At the end of the day, that part doesn’t matter.

Dressed in blue from his Tigers’ hat to his Nikes, he was meandering sloppily down Adams Street surrounded by friends.  Our Scion drove up behind them and stopped at the red light, just as they entered the crosswalk. They abruptly looked in our direction.

“Get the f*ck out of my D!” one of them shouted.

They appeared to be looking for something to occupy their time.  They were looking to cause some trouble.

“My, God.  Danielle, he’s got a gun,” my husband said.

“I said get the f*ck out of my city!”

The light turned green, and he waited for them to finish crossing before flooring the gas.  He was acting only on instinct.  My heart quickened as the car accelerated, thrusting my shoulders into my seat.  Our small hatchback was approaching them, and we had nowhere to turn.  We were stuck.  Either stay there like sitting ducks, or get past them immediately.

I grabbed my husband’s arm, digging my nails into his bicep.  With my other hand, I fidgeted with the seatbelt.  I twisted the thick gray fabric, wishing it were made of something stronger.  Before my husband pushed my head down below the window, I managed to look the young man straight in his eyes.

His brows were distorted and nostrils flared.  The anguish in his stare made my breath stick to the insides of my throat.  His gun, small and silver, was pointed right at our faces.

Detroit hasn’t been the same since the riots of 1967, and the white flight that followed.  It was much more than a difficult time in Detroit.  It was a time for significant downhill change for the city, filled with violence and civil disobedience.  White residents fled by the thousands to suburbs.  When they left, they took prosperity, and left a lasting footprint of decay that can still be seen today.  There is a racial divide so deep that time hasn’t been able to fully repair it.  Transplants (like myself) don’t get it at first, but the people born and raised there have boiled blood still coursing through their veins.

Can you honestly blame them?

As I looked down the barrel of his gun, I felt strangely numb.  People say your life flashes before your eyes in situations like that, but I felt nothing.  Time stopped, and I sat there, frozen, waiting for him to end our lives with a bullet.

I did nothing wrong, but the frustration in his dilated pupils told me I was good enough to be his scapegoat. I could be the revenge for his city, and for the years of poverty it had endured when people like me (white and blissfully ignorant) abandoned Detroit in its’ darkest hour.  In that millisecond, my future was in his hands.

Only a child, fifteen at most, he was a product of the pain his family, and city, had endured.  It was the change he thought he needed, but in that moment he didn’t pull the trigger.

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