Electro house music crackled through the speakers as blue lights sent shadows drifting across nameless faces around me. More than once I thought I recognized someone from home, but I knew that was nearly impossible. I ran away from my abusive dad in the Connecticut suburbs, hours away from this shack of a bar in Brooklyn.
After my fourth week of working long hours in the city, my new friend, or whatever he is, James, and I were dancing and drinking away our fourth weekend in a bar. We left bills unpaid on the kitchen counter in our mouse-infested flat, so we could afford the New York nightlife.
“I need a cigarette,” I said, nodding towards the stairs.
‘What Kaitlyn?” James yelled over the music. He took another sip of his fifteen-dollar drink.
I raised two fingers to my lips and yelled, “smoke!”
James hid our drinks behind a speaker at the DJ booth and guided me with his hand at the small of my back up the stairs. The affection sent warmth through my hips as we ascended onto the cold street. Outside, he took off his vest and wrapped it around my bare shoulders. I wasn’t used to someone being so kind.
“I really like you,” James said.
I blew smoke circles into the Brooklyn air and scooted close to him. I found James on Craigslist. He was looking for a roommate, not a girlfriend. I liked him too, but wasn’t ready to admit it yet.
I flicked the butt of my cigarette and let out one last puff of smoke. “Ready?” I asked. James nodded.
Inside, he retrieved our drinks and we danced our way through the crowd until we found an opening on the dance floor. We synchronized our breaths with the beat, with each other.
After the set change, James downed the last drop of vodka from his cup and asked, “Do you feel okay?”
I nodded. I was safe beneath the disco lights. It was one place that remained constant. The place I could go when things went south at home.
“Something’s not right,” he said. I stopped dancing. James’ eyes were unfocused and his body swayed uncontrollably.
“James?” I asked. “Are you okay?” In the back of my mind, I already knew he wasn’t. Someone had slipped something in his drink and it was likely meant for me.
“I think so,” he yawned. “I need to go to bed.”
I wrapped his arm around my shoulder, and my knees threatened to buckle under his limp body. It didn’t matter. “Let’s get you home,” I said. I could feel his breath slowing against my neck. “Stay with me, James,” I said. I dug my heels in to get him up the stairs. Not one person looked. Maybe too many drunks pass by night after night to notice.
Outside, city lights glimmered beyond Brooklyn, now quiet except the whooshing cars in the distance and the clacking of my heels against the concrete.
“Kaitlyn,” he whispered into my ear, “I think somebody roofied me.”
“Shh. It’s okay, James,” I said. “We’re almost home now.”
When we reached the subway stairs, James collapsed. “James!” I shouted. I knelt beside him and grabbed his collar, shaking him. “Wake up, James!” He didn’t respond. I grabbed my phone from my back pocket and dialed 911. The gravity of not having him seemed too heavy to hold. Would I make it here alone?
“9-1-1. What’s your emergency?”
“Oh God. I think this guy…my friend…er boyfriend..was drugged.”
“Okay, Miss. Can you tell me where you are?”
“Umm….Yeah…I’m at the Bedford L train station stairs. Please hurry. He won’t wake up.”
Ten minutes later, James was being strapped to a gurney.
“Will he be okay?” I asked the paramedic, who responded by shaking her head uncertainly.
“We won’t know for sure until we run tests at the hospital.”
Please let him be okay. “He’s all I have.”
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